Friday, October 31, 2008

I'd be surprised if anyone in the history of the world ever wished more fervently to believe in prayers of petition than I do at this moment.

I believe in prayer, in the power of prayer. I do not believe in God-as-Gepetto, in One who will pull the right strings to provide what I request.

If only I did, I would pray for my daughter to be safe from all harm. Then I would pray for her to love me best, want me only, be close to my heart forever. (Very mature, no?)

Katie found her birth mother. They are probably on the phone together at this very moment.

And, wonder of wonders, she lives in the Kansas City area. Moved here within months of the time I did.

And so my prayers are this: Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Guide my tongue and my actions. Lead my heart in the ways I should go. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.

Amen.

3 comments:

Carrie Wilson Link said...

love.

Michelle O'Neil said...

As it was in the beginning, world without end, your love for Katie, before she was born you called to each other, no shortage, only expansion, only more love.

Amen.

Deb said...

Katie's birth mom is probably praying much the same thing. She is grateful beyond words to you and does not want to hurt you in any way.