Thursday, May 28, 2009

Riding the Tail of the Kite

A dear friend called yesterday, at the end of her rope. She told me an amazing story of surrender and how the Universe responded.

I knew exactly what she was talking about--the feeling that you simply and absolutely cannot move, cannot pick yourself up and start again one more time, cannot. Cannot. Cannot.

But I also knew what she meant about the spark of connection to the Divine and how it lives inside us. I sometimes feel so far from it, but know that the spark has not moved. It is constant. My ability to perceive it shifts and changes. I miss feeling that connection the way I miss my daughter at college or my parents when I lived far from them. I miss it as the source of my strength and the nurture of my soul.

No feeling I know comes close to the feeling of being in the flow--riding the tail of a kite flown by God alone. It's free and effortless: simple joy in doing.

I sometimes feel the spark hovering behind me, just out of sight and reach. I whirl, trying to catch it, but that's no good. Maybe the only answer is to throw myself at the feet of God and surrender.

6 comments:

Doubting Thomas said...

Hmmm.

I recall taking some good-natured jabs over the years for my steadfast belief in surrender as a spiritual virtue. Certain friends who excel at striving have found me a bit too passive in my approach.

Perhaps I wasn't entirely wrong?

I heard it once described this way (a paraphrase, not an exact quote).

"Only seekers will find it.

"But only when they stop seeking."

A pretty complete definition of spiritual surrender, if you ask me.

Congratulations, by the way. Your life also proves that striving has equal merits.

Is it possible to strive for surrender, I wonder?

Carrie Wilson Link said...

Surrender, acceptance, all those good things are so damn hard to do. But they're everything.

Amber said...

Ooooh meeee tooo. I miss that feeling lately. It has been much on my mind. And I know it is only me that has become to busy in my mind, maybe, to feel it so close...always waiting there.

Hmm.

;)

Michelle O'Neil said...

In the stillness.

kario said...

I'm feelin' it, Jerri. I know that whatever "God" is, he or she is just waiting for you to let go so you can bask in the love and light.

Deb Shucka said...

I love the tail of the kite image. Surrender also involves trusting the air (and the kite) to carry you high.