Thursday, May 28, 2009

Riding the Tail of the Kite

A dear friend called yesterday, at the end of her rope. She told me an amazing story of surrender and how the Universe responded.

I knew exactly what she was talking about--the feeling that you simply and absolutely cannot move, cannot pick yourself up and start again one more time, cannot. Cannot. Cannot.

But I also knew what she meant about the spark of connection to the Divine and how it lives inside us. I sometimes feel so far from it, but know that the spark has not moved. It is constant. My ability to perceive it shifts and changes. I miss feeling that connection the way I miss my daughter at college or my parents when I lived far from them. I miss it as the source of my strength and the nurture of my soul.

No feeling I know comes close to the feeling of being in the flow--riding the tail of a kite flown by God alone. It's free and effortless: simple joy in doing.

I sometimes feel the spark hovering behind me, just out of sight and reach. I whirl, trying to catch it, but that's no good. Maybe the only answer is to throw myself at the feet of God and surrender.


Doubting Thomas said...


I recall taking some good-natured jabs over the years for my steadfast belief in surrender as a spiritual virtue. Certain friends who excel at striving have found me a bit too passive in my approach.

Perhaps I wasn't entirely wrong?

I heard it once described this way (a paraphrase, not an exact quote).

"Only seekers will find it.

"But only when they stop seeking."

A pretty complete definition of spiritual surrender, if you ask me.

Congratulations, by the way. Your life also proves that striving has equal merits.

Is it possible to strive for surrender, I wonder?

Carrie Wilson Link said...

Surrender, acceptance, all those good things are so damn hard to do. But they're everything.

Amber said...

Ooooh meeee tooo. I miss that feeling lately. It has been much on my mind. And I know it is only me that has become to busy in my mind, maybe, to feel it so close...always waiting there.



Michelle O'Neil said...

In the stillness.

kario said...

I'm feelin' it, Jerri. I know that whatever "God" is, he or she is just waiting for you to let go so you can bask in the love and light.

Deb Shucka said...

I love the tail of the kite image. Surrender also involves trusting the air (and the kite) to carry you high.