A dear friend called yesterday, at the end of her rope. She told me an amazing story of surrender and how the Universe responded.
I knew exactly what she was talking about--the feeling that you simply and absolutely cannot move, cannot pick yourself up and start again one more time, cannot. Cannot. Cannot.
But I also knew what she meant about the spark of connection to the Divine and how it lives inside us. I sometimes feel so far from it, but know that the spark has not moved. It is constant. My ability to perceive it shifts and changes. I miss feeling that connection the way I miss my daughter at college or my parents when I lived far from them. I miss it as the source of my strength and the nurture of my soul.
No feeling I know comes close to the feeling of being in the flow--riding the tail of a kite flown by God alone. It's free and effortless: simple joy in doing.
I sometimes feel the spark hovering behind me, just out of sight and reach. I whirl, trying to catch it, but that's no good. Maybe the only answer is to throw myself at the feet of God and surrender.
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Hmmm.
I recall taking some good-natured jabs over the years for my steadfast belief in surrender as a spiritual virtue. Certain friends who excel at striving have found me a bit too passive in my approach.
Perhaps I wasn't entirely wrong?
I heard it once described this way (a paraphrase, not an exact quote).
"Only seekers will find it.
"But only when they stop seeking."
A pretty complete definition of spiritual surrender, if you ask me.
Congratulations, by the way. Your life also proves that striving has equal merits.
Is it possible to strive for surrender, I wonder?
Surrender, acceptance, all those good things are so damn hard to do. But they're everything.
Ooooh meeee tooo. I miss that feeling lately. It has been much on my mind. And I know it is only me that has become to busy in my mind, maybe, to feel it so close...always waiting there.
Hmm.
;)
In the stillness.
I'm feelin' it, Jerri. I know that whatever "God" is, he or she is just waiting for you to let go so you can bask in the love and light.
I love the tail of the kite image. Surrender also involves trusting the air (and the kite) to carry you high.
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