Thursday, April 29, 2010

Ready or Not

I submitted a story to a literary magazine this morning. Took about 5 minutes to complete the process.

Well...5 minutes plus two years of dithering.

Two years ago I set the story aside, thinking it wasn't ready. Over the last few days, I changed about 12 words . This morning I pressed "Send."

The story may not be ready yet. I may never know where a story is going or how to get it there. But writing makes me feel alive, and leaving my stories in a digital file gathering virtual dust makes no sense.

I've missed the last few Wednesday night bike rides. Too busy at work, don't you know. Last night I was pressed for time to start with, then the brakes on my bike failed, the road I needed to take to the park was closed, and the wind was blowing 30 miles an hour. I stopped, took off my helmet, and wondered why in the world I persisted despite all the obstacles. I pulled my phone from my pocket and toyed with the idea of calling my dad to come pick me up, thinking I'd just forget the whole thing.

A cloud scudding across the sky caught my eye. I decided it didn't matter how long it took me or how hard the wind was blowing. I was outside. The sun was shining. Exercise is good.

I walked the bike half a mile down the torn-up road and headed to the trail. Two hundred yards down the road, I knew why I didn't give up. The juice is in the doing, in the trying.

This morning, I tried. I sent the story. Stay tuned.


Carrie Wilson Link said...

The juice is in the doing. Love that. Like "it's not the destination but the journey," but better.

Deb Shucka said...

Ditto, Carrie. You're already a success for sending. The rest is gravy.

Go Mama said...

The juice is in the doing. The "putting yourself out there," regardless of the outcome. These are those moments in life when it's not the mulling over, but the action itself that affirms your courageous and boldness, and takes you to a new level.

Love you.

Amber said...

Good!! You will never know if you don't try. Put it out there! Keep us posted.

oxox :)

luckyzmom said...

The anticipation is palpable.

kario said...

Sounds like you've already won a small victory to me.

Good luck, my friend.